Wednesday December 21, 2005

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   December 21, 2005

   annette_tsui

   不快樂…就讓自己喧洩一下吧！不過之後就一定要振作，重新開始！

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   December 21, 2005

   listen_up_world

   “Please don’t lie to me,” she cries… “unless you’re absolutely sure I’ll never find out the truth.”
   How can you expect me to just let you get away with something like this? This is a big deal and don’t think for one second that im going to just brush it off and forget it. Babe you screwed up and its going to take a lot of work to get back to the way things used to b…
   Tell her that you love her, tell her that you need her , tell her that you want her to stay* Reassure her with a kiss..she will never know unless you show her what your feelin, tell her your believin..even if its hard to say..cause she needs to kno your thinking of her..so open up and tell her that you love..her
   You mean the world to me and I’ll never stop loving you ‘Cause what you have given me I can never repay And if we meet again somehow, I will love you then as now ‘Cause you mean the world to me~
   I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get the courage to talk to you… I’d tell you how much I need you and how much I want you… and how nothing else matters.
   Here’s my philosophy on dating. It’s important to have somebody that can make you laugh, somebody you can trust, somebody that, y’know, turns you on… And it’s really, really important that these three people don’t know each other.
   I know I shouldn’t be this jealous or worried all the time about what you’re doing, or who you’re with but the only reason I am this way is because you lied to me..broke my heart into pieces…now im giving you another chance..but you need to earn this trust back..cause right now..you have none.
   I know I shouldn’t be this jealous or worried all the time about what you’re doing, or who you’re with but the only reason I am this way is because you lied to me..broke my heart into pieces…now im giving you another chance..but you need to earn this trust back..cause right now..you have none.
   Everything changes eventually. That’s just the way life is and you have no control over it. Like suddenly people who you think are always going to be there, they disappear. You know? People die and they move away and they grow up.
   When I saw you going for her hand… it’s not like I wanted to be the one holding your hand. I just didn’t want her holding it.
   I’m scared that I’m gonna end up alone. I’m scared that I’m always gonna be someone’s friend, or brother, or confidant but never quite… someone’s everything. Mostly I’m scared I’m never gonna meet a guy that I love as much as I love you.
   .:.whAt am i To yOu?.:.
   a few quesitons that i need to kno… how you culd ever hurt me so…i need to know what ive done wrong and how long its been going on. ((Was it that i never paid enuff attention?)) Or *did I not give enuff affection?* Not only will ur answers keep me sane but i’ll know never to make the same mistake again. You can tell me to my face..or even on the fone..either way i hafta know. >Did i never treat you right?< .:.Did i always start the fight?.:. Either way im going outa my mind all the answers to my questions i have to find.
   i thot i was the *one*…. when we were 2getther u wuld take me to another place in time where i culd feel free. u were the one that i was searching for. thats when i thot i culd lean on you for life i thot that the sun wuld always shine but you took my dreams away i remember the lies that you told me baby..you told me loved me…you told me youd never deceive me …u told me ur love was true..you told me were through
   its all all over this time..i swear…thot i was meant for you and u believed in me. i thot this was how love was meant to be…i had absolutely had no clue u were fooling around. you had a hold on me..i was to blind to c…->do you recall the times that we shared?all those moments alone? but now things are gone …and ur- on- ur- own.
   I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.
   Look, I guarantee there’ll be tough times. I guarantee that at some time, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don’t ask you to be mine, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you’re the only one for me. <33
   ::*it takes years to build up ((*trust*)) and it only takes suspicion….not proof to destroy it*::
   This is my letter of departure although you were the first to say goodbye, this is all the broken:/\/\/\: promises and empty tears i ((cried)), this is how you were “always right” and i was left alone, this is all the nights i spent waiting by the phone, this is all the times you kissed me and told me i was *great*, this is all the times you said you’d better be there and came 2 hours late, this is all the “i love you’s” whispered in my ear, this is when i realized i’d been waiting for a year, this is the nights i heard you were m-e-s-s-i-n-g around on me, this is all the love from me which you were too blind to see, this is all the cards and flowers and cd’s and the rings, this is how you thought you’d make it better, buying things, this is to last november when my life was a [lie], this is how you won’t forgive me no matter how hard i try, this is to i hate you and all the nasty things you said, this is to the nights you made me think i was dead, this is to the end, and to a new, clean start, this is to the first boy to ever break my heart. fuck you
   Unmake all the memories I can’t forget, Unlove me, Let me go back to the way i was before we met, back to the day when i was strong, when i wasn’t sad to be alone, when i was happy-go-lucky, and i didn’t know how good it felt to hold you and feel my heart melt, show me a little mercy and unlove me, unlove me, untie all the strings between your heart and mine, unlove me but do it real slow, so i don’t have to lose you all at one time
   It’s not as if I’m hard to please
   You’re the only one good enough for me
   Those others just won’t do
   I don’t like anyone but you
   ……You
   If i lost you i would never be able to love again->and even if i tried..i would still compare him to you…no one in the world could ever take your place in my heart …no matter how hard they try.
   The first time you said “I love you” my heart melted and the whole world stopped. It was just you, me, and that moment that i will cherish forever. But saying it once isn’t enough..I need some re-assuring or else I won’t know if you meant it or not. And if you don’t mean it then dont even say it because that moment when my heart melted and the whole world stopped is a one time thing and one day… if you do decide that you really do love me…that moment..means nothing.
   i wanna b the one that makes you feel something real
   Guys dont ((leave)) you for another girl because she’s pReTtIeR or has a better bOdY. It’s because she makes him feel good about himself. As selfish as it may sound, its true..so if you want to keep him in your life.. make him feel *special*.
   I just want to let you know that your love has affected me in so many ways…I am a better person because you beleived in me…I try harder in life because I want to impress you..but most of all your love has opened my heart and made me realize that you’re the only *one* for me.
   People tell me to move on… hes not good enough for me, he’s full of lies..but they dont know the whole story, they don’t know whats going on in his mind, and im sure that if they put themselves in my situation…they’d be just as confused as I am.
   You can try to buy my love but all i really
   want is for you to say ….
   BABY I LOVE YOU

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